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蓝色大门

MoviesPosted by DJ Wed, May 26, 2010 11:05:37

贞贞给我推荐了一首歌,忘记是什么名字了,但是在Youtube上看到MV后,却被里面的故事吸引,原来是02年台湾拍的蓝色大门。讲的是一个17,18岁的女生在那个阶段的对性取向的迷茫。

非常缓慢的镜头,轻柔的音乐,经常重复的关键台词,单车,阳光和抖动的镜头,随着故事的引入,不知道为什么我也会跟着一起莫名其妙的心动和心痛。因为它让我想起自己懵懂的17岁。不过我跟很多人不同,高中的时候我是只丑小鸭,外加上性格比较像男生,所以身边的男生都把我当哥们看。女孩子喜欢跟我一起,因为我老把自己当做护花使者。所以即使有时候对某个男生有心动,也都是默默压抑。怕表示出来后连哥们都做不成。虽然经常会很难过,至少还可以跟他们称兄道弟,勾肩搭背。

可是后来高三了,以前打饭,打水,上厕所都要我陪的那些女朋友都找到了呵护她们使者。比如说娟,她一直像个大姐姐样照顾我,我们不是在一个宿舍,但是到了吃饭打水的时间她都会来叫我,早上晨练都会一起跑到野外,我们曾经开玩笑说我们是好的连一颗花生米都要掰成两瓣分来吃的好朋友。到了后来温柔的娟有了个锲而不舍的追求者,小史。小史每次上午课完的时候都在教室门口等娟,帮她拿午餐盒去饭堂买午餐,下午课上完会帮娟提水壶打开水并送到宿舍大门口。有时候也会买小零食让我代送过去。娟一直没有答应小史的追求,高考过后,我们重聚学校填志愿表,小史偷看了娟的志愿,于是一直追到大学去了。现在两个人终于喜结连理。真的好羡慕那样子可以一路走下来的恋情。扯远了,其实我想写的是,我那时候起就好羡慕那种被人追求的机会。从来都是我去暗恋某个男生,偷偷的跟着人家,总是故意在一个地方等着希望能够创造巧遇,即使在他旁边心跳不已,也要装作如无其事。

现在回头看看那些自己暗恋过的男生,其实都远远在我的标准下了。大部分都没有进多好的大学,也没有什么成就。哈,我现在变的好世俗哦。本来就是这样,17,8岁的时候,那是青涩的年龄,心动的年龄,过了17,8岁,再去看,就不会有同样的感觉了。

蓝色大门看完了,一个似是而非的结果,记得谁的诗里写过。Certainty is beautiful, uncertainty is more beautiful. 克柔的害羞的笑容其实已经告诉我,她大概知道自己的取向了,当小士的花衬衣飘远的时候,她到嘴边的话却没有说出口。其实坦白的说,我十几岁的时候也经历过同样的阶段,对同异性的好奇,曾经跟一起玩到大的女生尝试过接吻。并不是有感觉的那种,只是纯粹的好奇。想想蛮好玩的,我们也有过躲到角落偷偷抽烟的经历。那时候好像还不到十岁。还好我没有跟她一样,成年后成为烟民。

所以说嘛,有时候这些对小孩子说forbidden的事情应该让他们自己尝试一下,有时候单纯只是因为好奇的坚持并不是一定是他们的喜好。

怀恋我的青春。



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Dodeskaden

MoviesPosted by DJ Mon, March 09, 2009 12:43:18

This last weekend was loaded with a couple of heavy movies, mostly made during or before the 70s. Though I was born in the 80s, yet I have started to appreciate these "arts" before my time. Sad part is, once you got into these artistic movies, or controversial movies, then you will start rejecting the Hollymood movies subconciously.

This is at least how I feel. I really don't think I could go back and watch those "moded" movies that you could guess the ending from the beginning, or once the music starts, you would know exactly what is going on.

In between of these master movie pieces, I also watched the one with Tom Cruise and Nicole Kidman right before their divorce. Unbearable is the word. I seriously couldn't stop thinking "Oh, that is really terrible acting" during the whole movie, though the director is pretty famous and it's an Oscar winning piece. The thing is, with the real good movies, you won't even bother to think that the actors are actually acting, they just drag you into the roles and it's like you are living through the whole story.

Anyway, Dodeskaden is the one that I am most fond of among the ones I've watched this week. I've known Akira Kurosawa from some Chinese documentaries, but I'd never seen any of his works, thought that it's not something people at my age could understand. However, Dodeskaden changed my mind about all that speculation.

Everything starts with a boy driving his imaginary train into the "city" which is set in the mid of dump. We are like passengers on the boy's imaginary train going into these people's life. There are two druker husbands and their wives, an old respectable man, disgusting uncle and hardworking niece, begger dad who is a dreamer and sweet begger son, an honest man and the wife who cheat on him....all these ordinary people that we might see in our own life. Through these people's stories, we see the reflection of humanity and similarities in our own stories. I would like to watch this movie again 10 years from now, and I am sure I'll understand the movie totally different from what I comprehended today.


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